Introspective

So this is my initial post in this blog, and its always a struggle deciding what to talk about. I decided an outlet for my random thoughts might be a good idea. You may disagree, and that is your right.

Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror, not even after a rough night but an average one, and said to yourself, "My friend, you are bat-shit-crazy."? Well, neither have I. But perhaps it would be a helpful exercise. I firmly believe in the power of self-assessment. The practice of taking a moment slowing down and trying to decided how the hell you got where you are today. I might do it more often than I should mention, and I have been known to be a little over-critical of myself. This has led to a slightly negative self image at times, but I have managed to figure out why I do most of the things I do.

When I started out in college I was a psychology major. I really thought I might end up as a psychologist or psychiatrist one day. About three weeks into the class I realized that I wasn't really learning anything new, in fact I was really bored. I was born with an innate sense for the reasons behind human behavior. I can watch someone react to a given situation in a particular manner and make a reasonable guess as to what their motivation is. It comes natural and is one of the few things I am very good at.

 This ability has two big fringe benefits that I exploited while growing up. First, I am very very good at pushing peoples buttons both in the areas of anger and humiliation. My siblings all went through phases of hating me because I could make them mad like nobodies business. Second, I am a fantastic liar. I lied continually and compulsory. I very rarely got caught in lie, which served to my benefit when provoking my siblings. I have five by the way; siblings that is. I am in the middle, which should be fairly apparent.

Well this should get my blog started anyway. Tune in next time to read me explaining how paint dries....